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item list for the last week.. real post as my head straightens out. / 2002-10-21 - 3:08 p.m.

Its been a few days since I've posted anything in here.  There's been so much.  Just so, so many things that are running around waiting for me to make into coherent thought.  I feel almost like I'm burning the candle at both ends.  Things are racing around so fast that I can't even type a straight sentence.  A few things that have been going on, in list form, is about all anyone is going to get out of me right now.

  • I read something last week, that lead to alot of realizations as to how I look at myself and the world around me.
  • This spurred a two hour conversation with my best friend and I now feel much closer to her and much better about things overall.
  • I bought my first leather jacket as a birthday present to myself.
  • I cut my hair.  Not the normal trim I get, I had a good five inches taken off, so it no longer touches my shoulders.
  • I went over to a friend's house to watch wrestling and have coffee.
  • I had breakfast with Shan and made fun of teenage girls who call their fathers "Daddy" when they want something.
  • I went out later that day with Stacey and a new friend whose name is Harley.  We talked for awhile, then went to the local occult bookstore.
  • I replaced my tarot deck that had been stolen in April in the same car break-in that claimed my entire CD collection.
  • Stacey bought me a goddess candle with this beautiful goddess charm on it that I now wear on my neck.
  • Went to Willow House (coffee shop, for the non-phonecians), with Shan, Stacey and Matt.  Dessie made her appearance later.
  • Stacey, Shan and I sat with Matt and Dessie as our audience, singing various songs until 2am-- well after the Willow House closed and the staff left.
  • We sang Leather by Tori Amos three times.
  • This marks the first time I've sang with a group of people present since I was 14.
  • We also played the Cup Game until we couldn't stop flinging the foam cups off the table.
  • After that we went to Ihop and stayed for a short while.
  • I woke up the next morning sick as a dog.
  • I was fine by 9pm.
  • Brendan wasn't feeling well this morning and was sent home by the daycare.
  • The daycare accused me of child abuse.
  • Brendan is fine now.
  • I'm sitting here at work, simmering from that.
  • I know this isn't the end of the world and that everything is going to be just fine.
  • Next weekend I go to Rocky Point with Shan, Stacey, Dessie and Jeff to see Roger Clyne and the Peacemakers.
  • This will be the kind of fun and recreation that I've been needing, with good company to boot.

All things said, for as much of a flow chart as that looks like in my head, I'm not in bad shape.  The things I'm thinking, the world view that I'm forming is so much more realistic than the one I had before.  I feel much more confident than I have before and its a nice feeling.  Everything else that's been negative and holding me down is really just a side item now.