Except somewhere along the way some fool got wind of this little fact and decided that I should be put in the target market for match making services.

I've seen people find love in the internet, and that's novel and all. That's not for me.

I personally couldn't handle meeting someone who lives halfway across the country and not being able to do those interesting things you do when you're first feeling a person up, er... I mean out. Well, you know what I mean. ;)

But these services want you to 'Find Your True Love' on the digital playing field. Which leads to spending all your time chatting online, but never being able to go out for coffee, see their expressions when they're talking to you, get a real feel for if that person is on the level rather than blowing smoke up your ass to impress you.

Not that face-to-face dating doesn't have its downfalls as I found, but my total dating experience really equals out to almost nothing anyway. So what do I honestly know?

I know that I'm okay with being single now. It hasn't bothered me in quite sometime now that I don't have a significant other. Not getting laid, that's a different story. I could really use a good, hard roll across my bed and onto the floor, whatever. That's the nature of being single though, much like being homeless-- you don't know where your next meal is going to come from.

So what, really. I've got a career, friends, my son and things are generally looking up for me for the first time in awhile. I simply don't have time to dwell on it much anymore, I'm busy enjoying my life with its joys and stresses. I'm seeing the world in a different light somedays where I see that things aren't nearly as bad as I had thought they were.

Its all really funny, trying to balance it all. I still get severely depressed, pouring dreary rants into my LiveJournal, but they pass and I face the world again. I do things I need to do, moving on from that moment when things totally got to me.

I have no idea where I'm going with any of this, its three o'clock in the morning and its all pretty much a random list of things that I'm thinking at the moment, that I'm not keeping up with very well at all.

Maybe that's the universal hint that its time for me to take my happy ass to bed.