| old days | new days | new hangout | a word from our sponsor |
| waiting to kiss summer goodbye. / 2002-07-31 - 11:41 p.m. |
| I don't really write in here anymore. Last week, my gold membership ran out and I didn't bother to rewnew it. Partially because I'm completely broke, but really, what would I be doing with it? There's alot to say about what's been going on. I'd like to state that I'm just in a big state of limbo. That's why I haven't written. I'm stagnant in alot of ways right now. Nothing is changing, yet everything is moving so fast. My four year wedding anniversary is coming up. The one year anniversary of the break up of my marriage as well. Same day. How fitting. There's no bitterness about breaking up, all and all, given everything that happened, I'm glad we did. It was time. I wish the summer would end. Take with it the heat and humidity. The nasty feeling that I get when I walk from my car to my apartment. Winter needs to get here. I know it will soon enough, this year has flown by, but I need it. That's when I shine. That's my element, when everything will fall into place. Where I'll fall into place. Summer is when I feel like I don't belong to anything or anyone. Not even myself. |