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cleaned out and blank. / 2002-05-09 - 10:11 p.m.
It seems my entries have gotten more and more erratic in the last few months. There was a time when I couldn't go a day without updating. Now three, four, even five days with nothing to say here.

What can I say to fill this space? Not much, I can't explain what's happening to me. The change going on inside. There's been a fundimental shift in how I feel about everything, how I face it, how I take on life. Right now, there's no way for me to tell all of you what it is or how it feels.

The only thing I feel right now is a blankness, like a freshly cleaned whiteboard. You know the metaphor I want to use-- just waiting for the next chapter of my life to be written on it. Those dry erase markers poised and fuming, just waiting to jot down what's coming next.