It happens every night. Curl up in bed, into the sleep, jolted awake, then staggering around the house, so tired I can barely walk or function mentally on any level. This is why I haven't been posting. I can't form any thought to a complete enough state to write it down. It gets lost in the murky void with everything else that rides its way through my head on an express route to some unknown destination. Maybe my stomach, as a knot has settled itself in quite nicely.

I know I need to sleep. No one can go on in this state for very long without losing some part of their sanity. I've gone with this longer than I care to admit. Some four odd weeks. I've lost count, its all blurred at this point.

There have been a few occasions where I slept and slept well. Those are few and far in between.

I'm sorry I can't write a longer entry. Nor can I really explain the state I'm in. Its mostly about me being tired to an extreme and once I can get a decent amount of rest I'll be able to face my life and what's turning into with some form of clarity.