Lately, I've been having alot of dreams of running from things, or one especially freaky one where I thought I had woken up and I had someone whispering in my ear and when I rolled over, no one was there.

During the course of the conversation I was having, my friend and I deducted that it was probably stemming from my issues with being single. Things I had thought were resolved, but more than likely just pushed to the back in favour of things that were easier to think of.

After that he went on to mention that some people end up in therapy for these things or they take years to work out.

Years!

You know, maybe for other people that's how it works. For me, that feels like mental stagnation. Spending the next few years, the rest of my twenties as they are just about half way over, trying to come to terms with the idea of being single.

No, this is unacceptable to me. I will get through this and not ignore it any longer, however I will not waste years of my life trying to come to terms with being single. That's just the thing that would drive me over the highside rather than resolve anything.

I am not a person to stay in one state or another of problems. To the outside world, I did stay with my ex for four years. Seems stagnant, right? Well, during that time, I was in constant change. Up and down, the mental tides kept on moving and I kept on growing inside much like my child grew during my pregnancy.